Reminiscing... :(

Forget him!! that's what my mind yells, and yet I still can't survive the fact that I'm always reminiscing the memories that I had with him.. He got it all, and now nothing left.. as in nothing.. :( I'm trying my best to focus on other things and other person as well, but everytime I took a glance at our picture, everything changes.. I still have pictures of him in my fb account and I always look at it.. :( Honestly, until now, I'm into him.. :( I knew he love me so much, but he's into the situation where he can't go out.. ;( Everybody knew how we love each other so much!! And everyone was expecting us to be together, for real.. But "happy story" has an ending, and I can't accept how it ends.. how my world crash into pieces.. I love him so much!! :( god knows how much I love him.. I'm just fooling myself and everybody that I'm not in-love with him but yes, I still do.. Most of the time, I kept stalking on their account curiously asking myself how are they and does he love her the way he did to me?? I knew deep inside he still misses me.. Because what we had was splendid, an extraordinary experience that I'm very proud of! He was my soul-mate, half of my heart, and my soul... I'm like crazy, pretending that I'm ok but not.. How I wish he was here beside me, I miss how he hugged me and how he called me "bibo" :( I want to cry, cry so hard til' I release everything at one time.. All I want is him, only him :( God knows how sorry I am for everything I did and I'm thinking sometimes to forgive him for everything if he decided to come back.. But I think it's too late.. He got his new girl now and for me, I have nothing.. I don't know if I can able to love again just as how I love him.. I don't know how I will release the pain.. sometimes, I just want to die :( I'm trying to be strong but there are times where I can't go on anymore..  If god can hear me right now, I will ask him if I can hold him one last time.. If I only have one wish, one wish, I will go back to the time when I met him and I will never let him go!! :( How I wish it was all just a dream.. that tomorrow, when i wake up, I'm right beside him again, happy, contented and forever in-love :((